Wednesday, March 31, 2010

with my Jewish Family

Two years ago I was working with 101 years old English lady. She died after I took care of her for 4 years. It was a nice experienced for me and a pride that I got a patient who's reached 101 years old. I have a lovely relationship with her and her family and after she died the family still want to communicate with me. They treated me so well being part of a family. When there is a special holidays like now Pesach-Passover they always invited me to join with them. For the past two or three days I spent a few hours with them. They were very warm people and I didn't feel strange each one of them. I could feel that our Grandma Martha was still there, sharing the joys and happiness with us. I miss them a lot when the time I go back in the Philippines.

 the Family
my 101 years old patient

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Saturday 9 : You're My Best Friend

You're My Best Friend

Welcome to Saturday: 9. What we've committed to our readers is that we will post 9 questions every Saturday. Sometimes the post will have a theme, and at other times the questions will be totally unrelated. Those weeks we do "random questions," so-to-speak. We encourage you to visit other participants posts and leave a comment. Because we don't have any rules, it is your choice. We hate rules. We love memes, however, and here is today's meme!

1. Outside of your romantic life, do you currently have a best friend?
         -Yes I have and they are great friends. For better and for worse.

2. Regarding your future, what is the best thing you could hope for?
        - to be happy and contented
3. Have you ever helped out a friend with basic needs, like rent or food? If yes. what did you do?
       -yes i idid but sometimes too much kindness is not good.
4. If they re-instituted the draft (for both genders and your were of age) would you go, or would find some way out of it?
      - I would find some way out of it.
5. Tell us one thing you wish you hadn't let yourself do.
     - I cant resist eating now, I don't know seems like an addiction.. reason why?I'm gaining weight. Time to discipline myself.
6. Tell us about the last time you bragged.
    -  I'm not usually bragged only when I'm intimidated.
7. What area are you wisest in?
    - Mostly I'm sensible for decision planning in life. But I don't know really if I am wise enough.
8. Tell us about something that happened that at the time made you "full of yourself".
    - I think  gaining more self confidence from a shy girl who only set in the corner to a naive young lady who wants to share her opinion and insist her rights when she thought she is in the right tract.
9. Has there ever been a time that you wanted to try something in the bedroom, but were afraid to ask?
     - yes

on my week end escapades....

I was longing to go out every week but because I don't have anybody to go with me so I prefer to watch American Idol, or go to bed early. 

My cousin who always my buddy, my friend, my partner in crime as one of my friend said. and  always canceled her appointment with me ..hehehe.. so one night I dreamed, saying to me "cousin I am sorry I cannot come" In my dreamed I said, "its ok but don't come anymore here" When I told her last thursday , she laughed at me and said she will come to spend time for the week end.

It was a lovely weekend escapades after 2 months that I never go out, can you believe that? Hahaha!!! We supposed to go to our favorite restaurant the Collins Kitchen Bar and Restaurant but  when we were there it was under renovation, fortunately that area has a lot of restaurants so we ended up to a Burger Restaurant name Black City. The restaurant was full, no vacant table for two so we sat by the bar counter. It was great, we order straight a dakiri for a drinks ..while waiting for our order. We were a little bit tipsy when we went home but we managed... We had 2 glasses of different cocktails drinks and a glass of wine at home before we went out.  I was really glad that my cousin spent time with me this week end and I had little escapades out from my work. Now, I am trying to convince my lady (patient) to spend at least 12 hours for my birthday in 2 weeks. I want to dance, I missed it a lot. Also I want to spend time some of my friends whom I see rarely. 

And its funny when we woke up in the morning at about 10 am we had fried rice for breakfast with egg and sausages. The time I supposed to prepare our lunch I received a text messages from a friend inviting us for a birthday celebration. They had inihaw na tilapia, with toyo na may bawang, bam-i pansit a banana cake,chicken adobo, chicken grill.  Most are filipino food which we missed a lot. Very rarely for us to have this food since we don't have flat(apartment). We stayed with our jobs. We were very full and enjoyable week end. 

I had a wonderful afternoon and I thank so much to Ate Melly and Ate Naty for having me in their thoughts all the time. Every time they have a celebration they won't missed to invite me. I am grateful to have a friend who's like a mother to me.

Things change since I started this job of mine, yes, its well paid but I am just a human being sometimes wants a life of the outside world. I am young in my own opinion and being engaged to my boyfriend  who's not with me. Soon we will be together and I am looking forward for it..

 Ate Melly , Me , Ate Naty

with my cousin ,our second drinks while waiting for our order
 our last drink, I'm a bit tipsy here
The Black diamond burger

Friday, March 26, 2010

trying hard

I had so much fun reading the entry of  GT this week , and I noticed most of you are mommies , hehehe!!! Do I need to join this, nahiya yta ako kasi I think I'm the only single here.. but I love, so I won't care na din..

By the way, I find it difficult to look for some hidden photos of mine, since my laptop has been reformat , all my old file was gone.  Luckily, I found some photo's from my camera and this one picture of mine caught my attention. I was laughing because I took this picture when I was trying to copy a pose of Penelope Cruz from a magazine, unfortunately it wasn't perfect to post it. If its not because of GT , i rather hide this! LOL

I was alone when I took this picture ,just set the timer of my camer, and trying hard to pose like a model. LOL.. parang addict, kakahiya!

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Saturday 9 : Just one Look

Welcome to Saturday: 9. What we've committed to our readers is that we will post 9 questions every Saturday. Sometimes the post will have a theme, and at other times the questions will be totally unrelated. Those weeks we do "random questions," so-to-speak. We encourage you to visit other participants posts and leave a comment. Because we don't have any rules, it is your choice. We hate rules. We love memes, however, and here is today's meme!

1. How vein are you about how you look?
        I am particular with my looks and don't try to change me because I won't do it.

2. When you were little what was your favorite TV show?
         Eat Bulaga , Lunch time entertainment program in the Philippines

3. If someone was going to make a movie or TV show about your life, who would play you and why?
         Nicole Kidman, she is beautiful and I like her.
4. Who is your favorite Major League Baseball team? How about your favorite player?
         I'm sorry I'm not interested in Sports but I like tennis
5. What is your favorite baseball-related movie?
6. What is one lesson you have learned in the past year?
        learned how to forgive and forget

7. Tell us about one of your childhood memories.
        Lol, I remember I got angry with my classmate in grade 1, so I took a big stone and hit her head, my teacher scolded me and rang my mother to pick me up coz I never stop crying.
8. How do you handle sticky situations? Do you have a method? If so, what is it?
        Most of the times I just keep quiet and if they ask me I'll tell the truth. And that relieves me.
9. Do you think people talk about you behind your back?
       I am sure they do, bad or good.. but who cares?

happens for a reason...

Its funny how plan can change a sudden twist, one day you plan and arrange to makes things perfect,  the next day you're off on that plans that you never thought its possible to happen. This is how exactly happened when I heard the news last night from my fiancee that he cannot go home for a vacation, the reason the company he is working  knew that if he will get out in the Country he won't come back anymore. So, they gave him a memorandum to finish the contract until September and cannot have a vacation otherwise he have to pay for breaking the contract. I never thought its gonna happen like this,the planned was so perfect..

So sad and I am sorry for our self.. Everything was set and here it is.

1. We already hire a wedding planner to set and work out our wedding dream to be. We gave 25% down payment of the said services. 
2. I paid my plane ticket 3 months ago and he paid his ticket as well a week ago.
3. We arrange for my replacement here in my job (note: my leaving is for good to settle down)
4. We set the date of our Church and its gonna happen in May.
5. I shipped almost of my things after 7 years working here.
6. We booked our accommodation back home.
7. All our requirements for marriage license was all ready
8. I ordered wedding souvenirs and gonna send it on last week of April 
9. From the principal sponsor, reception, and entourage was set.
10. We were waiting forward to see each other in 2 weeks time.

It was also strange why I felt awkwardly all day yesterday, I thought something get wrong, but it never come up to my mind what happened. I cried but I have nothing to do about, I believe pershet. Everything happens for a reason. When I told it to my employer, they still want me to keep until I leave. And that would be perfect for me, I am always ready to go home but I rather stay to save money and going back home when it is necessary. On the other hand, my fiance will try to make it up, we will furnish the house we bought. By the time we will there, it will be a fully furnish house. That's sounds great for us.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

on some words and notes

The slate's been wiped clean, the past has released its grip, and before you sparkles eternity, yearning for direction. Issa, all that lies between you and the life of your dreams is just one teeny, tiny, gentle, little rule. Only one condition, prerequisite, principle that matters.
It's not love. It's not God. It's not fate, or luck, or karma. It's not complicated or esoteric, and you needn't sacrifice, plead, or pray to invoke it. It's the only rule that's ever existed, and it's the only one that will ever exist. No reality can exist in its absence. For its mere existence, you are. With its existence, the power, the light, and the way are revealed. It's your purpose to discover it, and it's your destiny to master it. It's the beginning, the middle, and the end. The Alpha and the Omega. The be-all and end-all of every wish, desire, and dream, and you are its keeper.

This caveat of all caveats is that absolutely nothing can be anything until it is first imagined. Thoughts become things, nothing else does. And so, Issa, it's the thoughts you choose from here on out that will become the things and events of your life, forevermore. It is written in stone. There's no other way. It's your ticket to anywhere you can dream of. Your passport to abundance, health, and friendships. The key to the palace of your wildest dreams.

Your thoughts, and your thoughts alone, will set you in motion. Your thoughts will yield the inspiration, creativity, and determination you need. Your thoughts will orchestrate the magic and inspire the Universe. Your thoughts will carry you to the finish line if you just keep thinking them. Never give up. Never waiver, doubt, or ask.

Aim high.

That you've even received this Note, that you're able to read it through, means you are so close. So extraordinarily close. The hardest work has been done. The wars have already been waged. The lessons have already been learned. The journey, now, is for home.

Ain't no Blarney,

    The Universe

Notes from the Universe 

on some thoughts of real true friends

While making this vedio, I was thinking what a real true friendship are?

I have a wonderful friendship with Roze, Iren, Ruth, Marj, Elaine and Tonet. Though I didn't met them at the same time but the moment we shared together thats matter  most for me.Through thick and  thin, in good and bad times. We shared laughter, tears, problems and sentiments. Each one of us are always ready to listen. And I thought that's what friends are for..

So, with my relationship with them, I thought I could give a little idea or explanation what real true friends are?

For me friends, love unconditionally, of course we have little angry moments, we are only human being but what's done is done and all is forgiven. We don't need to be exactly the same, yes, we have similarities but we have also differences. I thought to keep going and holding on friendship is not only to expand on similarities but also to accept each others fault. The more we stay on friendship, I'm sure we know our friends and we cannot judge them.. We have to feel comfortable together otherwise it's not working or will not click.. We have also arguments and it is normal to be healthy. I think it's not nice we always agree on everything. Me, if I don't like it I'll say NO but I often said YES lol...

Sometimes also, without any reasons at all, we don't like the person in first meeting and vise versa.  So, believe in love at first sight because there is always an equivalent on friendship.

Friends are forever,they come, they go and  you will have separate lives, separate pathways but always the time and the memories that matters. Its how you make those days that you always remembered..

Sunday, March 14, 2010

on my naked face...

When I woke up this morning, it came up to my mind what if I will post my naked face here? ..LOL... make up free face.. no lipstick, no foundation not even considering a pressed powder. I know the idea makes me sick because I'm not used to post photos of myself  without wearing any make ups (smile) but I guess there is something about it that makes me feel free and liberating. And I figure it out that this is another step in my quest in learning to love the bits of myself that I consider to be imperfect, instead of admiring it as being lovely.

Posting this photo took me a lot of courage, and when I look at it I humbly say It's not bad I think hahaha!!! so scary to see my face without make ups. Its a fresh look, just got up from bed when I took this photo. I noticed that my right eye is smaller than my left eye. I like my lips, even without lipstick hehehe....but I look like my age LOL...I do feel much more insecure without wearing make ups or doing my hair though I don't wear a huge amount of make up on a daily basis. Usually I used only pressed powder and a bit of lips shiner. But it's nice to know that I can look myself in the mirror without wearing make ups,. I  guess that's the most important thing although we are all prettier when we wear  a bit of make ups on a daily basis.  I know there are certain things I have to cover in order to look like a decent human being.( ^_^). I posted some photo of my self  with make ups to a certain place I go. 

on daily basis 

when I go to church

went to parties, discos or dinner..

Wearing make ups will depend to the clothes and the fashion I'm wearing... It looks very different when I wear make ups and gain me a lot more of self confidence..
"Beauty is Always on the eye of the Beholder"

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Saturday 9: Gimme Three Steps

1. Are you the type of person who jumps into new ventures or do you prefer baby steps?
        It depends the situation but I am always a risk taker for adventure.

2. Who do you feel believes in you the most?
        My cousin Rose, I know she believes me the most.

3. When was the last time you were on a stage?
       Hahaha.. I think, 2001 9 years ago, when I received my diploma in college.

4. Tell us about the worst boss you ever had.
        She sent me for a bidding report and I had no idea of that  place... I was alone then, rode a bus to that strange place and ask where was the office. And when I came back to my office, she shouted at me why I was late..She didn't know  that I was lost.. But she get over her anger. and we won the bidding ..

5. If the NCAA Men's or Women's Final Four basketball tournament was played in your hometown arena or within easy driving distance from where you live, would you try to attend one the three games?
     I don't know I'm not a sports lover.

6. Of all the clothes you own, what do you feel most comfortable wearing, and why?
          Flif flops, jeans, sleeveless, and t-shirt in the summer. Then, boots, mini skirt and tights on the winter.. I feel comfortable and easy to move and shows who I am.

7. On what television show—either past or present—would you like to make to make a guest appearance, and what role would you play?
         Oprah Winfrey, I love her shows. It's real.. I would love only to be her guest and be interviewed.

8. St. Patrick's Day is on Wednesday March 17th. Do you celebrate and wear green? Drink Green Beer? Ignore it?
        Ignore it co'z I don't know about it.. Obviously it's not part of Philippines Holiday's or Israel Holiday's.

9. If a leprechaun told you that you could have any amount of money from his pot of gold but it had to be a specified amount for a specified item, how much would you ask for and what would it be for?
          A million of dollars LOL... I will give it to my parents, for vacation and business.. For myself enjoying my life to the fullest and for my future as well. Lastly, well will be given to my Church for expansion and renovation..

Thursday, March 11, 2010

It's time to Flesh, Girls Talk

hmmmm When I saw Niko's theme , It  reminded me when I was in the dead sea wearing  a daring 2 piece  bathing suits...LOL..In my life honestly , that was my first time to show off the world. I used to wear bathing suits but only 1 piece hehehe but because I want to bet the dare shots of some girls there so I did.. and you know that foreigner's,love our color brown,Here's my gutsy , fleshy shot ....

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Blogversary Contest

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elephant never forgets

I'm ashamed of my self in 31 years of my existence I never know that elephant never forgets things and places. Sarah my lady just told me today and honestly it was my first encounter. Perhaps, I wasn't a wide reader or never listen when my teacher was explaining that fact, or a phrase? ^_^:)

If this is a phrase or a fact?,what is the explanation?  For a few hours , while I was working, it was stuck on my mind and I was really eager to look for an answer.
According to my research "An elephant never forget " is a phrase

The origin of the phrase seems to go back to observations that elephants follow the same paths and even hand down genetic memories of directions and places grounds across generations. Each elephant clan has a certain burial place, like many human communities, and always help the dying ones get back there if they are not killed traumatically firstcontinue....

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Monday, March 8, 2010

Girls Talk, Vital Stat.

Girls Talk
This is my first time to join this awesome Girls Talk Theme . I am a new blogger and I am really sorry for my grammar. I used to interact people in the online world. I remember one of my chat mate asked me what is your vital statistic? How old are you?  or should say ASL (Age, Status and Location) Here the revelation of secrets for the world to

Age: 31 years  and 11 months old
Status : Single (engaged with a stranger)lol..
Weight : 110 lbs
Height:  5'2"tall
Vital Stat. : 32, 27, 34

I'm done... till next theme again.. love it..

on smiling face...

Its my first time to join this funny enjoyable game of Sam. and here it goes this week on saturday 9

1. No matter what's going on in your life, what always makes you smile?
       - preparation of my upcoming wedding, the thought of it , made me smile all the time. i am really excited.

2. What's the biggest lie you've ever told?
       - hmmm , I cannot discuss it here but what was it I learned from that lie and never do it again anymore in my whole life.

3. Do you hold a grudge?
      - Not really but recently I got upset .

4. What is the worst job you've ever had?
    - when I was staying with my cousin, I consider it as a job(domestic work)I was studying then I was free with board and lodging but I have to do all the house hold work. She treated me like a slaves.

5. What would be your dream job?
     - I dreamed to work in a big company as an executive or manager or as a business consultant.
6. What is the happiest event you've experienced?
     - When I finished my degree with my own hard work and sacrifices.

7. What is the saddest thing you've experienced?
    - When my sister got ill in America and I have to shoulder the responsibility(financially). All  my savings had lost for her illness. But I thanked GOD she get over it.

8. Do you tend to exaggerate or underestimate?
      - I think I used to exaggerate things, especially when I'm irritated to the person I talk with.

9. List the cars that you have owned. Give us just a few words about each one.
      - I don't have a car but I dreamed to have a BMW ...

notes from facebook, updated today

Five names I go by:
1.Issadora (my formal name)
2.Thata (my family,relatives and some close friends call me)
3.Issa (highschool and gradeschool)
4.Dora (at work)
5. Isang (by my boardmates in college)

Three things you are wearing right now:

1. Jeans
2. Cardigan
3. socks

Two things you want very badly at the moment

1.  Birth Certificate
2. Baptismal Certificate

Two things you did last night:

1. listening music
2. make an application letter

Two things you ate today:
1. fried chicken liver
2. Rice

Two people you last talked to on the phone:

1. ate elsa

Sunday, March 7, 2010

on my thoughts lately...

I felt tired, apprehensive or anxious lately. 

Its unusual for me, to change what exactly what I want then have a second thoughts. Feeling confident and have positive attitude then down to feeling insecure and embarrassed. Between feeling strong and brave and then  frightened and afraid. Feeling accomplished of some things but then suddenly I don't appreciate it. I'd say I'm happy but I'm a bit confused. And now I don't know what I gonna do. 

I am always tired, my body is aching though I made some a lot of walking lately to relax and breath. It's odd because I always thinking what's gonna be my life? wild imagination came up, mixed feelings that I don't understand that I find it difficult to get sleep at night. ^-^(sigh)

It's difficult for me, because I don't have an outlet of this feelings.I don't have friends nearer me, my family, my boyfriend is too far. I cannot wander around in town due to my situation (illegal). Lucky, I live in a wonderful place in front of the sea and I could go to the beach for a walk, and feel the breeze. Within my silence and contemplating myself from the past, I think I've grown enough.I've grown as a young cultured lady. I found my self to appreciate those things and be proud what I've accomplished. 

But is that enough what we called life? What should I do with my life? It's so sad and frustrating when I think I leave my wonderful job , that I called it was a career. I'm wasting time doing things isn't my passion though rewarding. I hate this thoughts and I hope this feelings will certainly passes by and follow what my heart desire.

I guess it's a normal feelings when you want to settle your life for a new direction. A  direction that I never know what will be.  It's like I'm looking in every direction knowing where I needed to end up but simply not knowing which way to take to get there. What if I fail?

To be honest I am frightened and apprehensive. I asked my self if I am ready to take this responsibility for a lifetime? To give up my freedom which I had it since I was thirteen. On the other hand, I want a family of my own. To sit by the beach together with my children and husband.  I want love and passion. hehehe!!!

I am sure these feeling will passes by. These are just things that have been occupying my thoughts lately and feel good to have it posted. Anyway, thanks for reading it :)

Thursday, March 4, 2010

on my crazyness of two things...

I never been crazy or idolize some actors, singers, actresses, or never been a lover of any sports but I am very much crazy with two things.

My Cellphone.. my lifeline to my offline friend and to those who doesn't have computer. my only best friend where ever I go, I become crazy without my phone..

my computer.. this is my best friend, my companion, i can stay whole day  in my room with my computer, watch movies, listening music, a lot of things i can do with this small thing. This also my lifeline to my family, online friends, my boyfriend, my soul mate, Oh , I cannot live with out it hehehe... this only a small thing that can satisfy me.. it rocks my life...



what I really want...?

I really want to be somebody, a career woman. I really want to have a family of my own. I really want to have a healthy loving relationship. Nothing more, Nothing less. To wake up in the morning with a beautiful sunshine and beautiful smile from a partner. I really want life to have a constant soundtracks, playing in the background, that matches my moods perfectly. I really want to give a smile to my family at all times. I really want to make my family and friends laugh

I really want to learn driving, to travel,an adventure. I really want to be a role model of my brothers and sister. To inspire them. I really want to savor moments of pure joy and happiness than they last..I always want to be optimistic, making things possible to happen. I really want to live a life without looking at a clock. I really want to feel comfortable for myself, to feel I'm perfect despite of my imperfections. To live life to the fullest.

I really want to hold my faith to GOD. I really want to fall in love everyday and be love in return. I really want to feel I'm important. To feel carefree and careless. I want people to know me and like me. I really want to be remembered.

I really want to have a simple house with a beautiful garden. A butterfly dancing and sipping the nectar of the flowers. I really want to live simply. I really want to be me, to drink wine whenever the moods strikes. To sit on the beach and watching the sky. I really want to grow old feeling younger.

I really want to be thankful above of what stage of life he has given me. To appreciate those beautiful things that happen to me. To recognize the trials, the struggles and the journey I've been through from the past. I want to be shine and proud of my self.

(inspired by "the bucket list"movie)

Hello I'm Back

Hello my dear readers and fellow bloggers. How you doin' guys? It's been a long time that I haven't visited here or give a chanc...