I really want to be somebody, a career woman. I really want to have a family of my own. I really want to have a healthy loving relationship. Nothing more, Nothing less. To wake up in the morning with a beautiful sunshine and beautiful smile from a partner. I really want life to have a constant soundtracks, playing in the background, that matches my moods perfectly. I really want to give a smile to my family at all times. I really want to make my family and friends laugh
I really want to learn driving, to travel,an adventure. I really want to be a role model of my brothers and sister. To inspire them. I really want to savor moments of pure joy and happiness than they last..I always want to be optimistic, making things possible to happen. I really want to live a life without looking at a clock. I really want to feel comfortable for myself, to feel I'm perfect despite of my imperfections. To live life to the fullest.
I really want to hold my faith to GOD. I really want to fall in love everyday and be love in return. I really want to feel I'm important. To feel carefree and careless. I want people to know me and like me. I really want to be remembered.
I really want to have a simple house with a beautiful garden. A butterfly dancing and sipping the nectar of the flowers. I really want to live simply. I really want to be me, to drink wine whenever the moods strikes. To sit on the beach and watching the sky. I really want to grow old feeling younger.
I really want to be thankful above of what stage of life he has given me. To appreciate those beautiful things that happen to me. To recognize the trials, the struggles and the journey I've been through from the past. I want to be shine and proud of my self.
Good morning everyone, as in to my follower (as in yes, there is a follower) thanks to all of you. I didn't have a good sleep. I was awake until 2 am in the morning, the reason why I didn't know. Perhaps of the wind is so awful, I heard banging the window since I'm living in front of the mediterranean sea. The weather is so weird here in Israel, last week seems like summer, as in we were in the middle of January and this week, its been 3 days with rain and and wind which Israel needs most.
But with my hot cup of coffe nothing really beats of this cold weather. What ever I feel , its very refreshing to have this coffe,Oh, love it. When my lady (employer) have visitor I served a coffe like this, made up from espresso machine and espresso coffe. I whisk first the milk and add the espresso coffe on it. Sounds so good really.
And with my morning talked, I thought it is a leap year. My lady told me that if it is leap year , well it is a proposal year. Which means, a women can propose a man. And it happens only on leap year every 4 years. I think sounds no different to me now a days, doesn't matter leap year or not. I think women of today can do anything , what a man can do. It's only historical that men have traditionally regarded as a superior to women in both power in status. Like my lady's story she treated her husband as king and afraid of her father eyes before just because it is a common views that the daughters should obey their father and wives should treated obey their husband. As of today, women are not far behind. We went to universities and we don't put any nonsense things. I am proud that I can make my own decision.
I am browsing one of my social website and I felt I was being judgemental , I don't know if I used the right word but I felt angry myself. Why people have to add friends which in fact they don't know a person? Why they cannot stick to their friends only? I understand that it is a social website but if you have added that person and didn't accept you then don't get mad probably she have some reason why she did that to you. And some trying to pretend they are their friends , but in truth they are not. Why they need to do that? To gain more friends? Or to gain whatever they are aiming? Here, I was being weird and pathetic, I'm not used to connect more friends, I only added those people whom I know. Actually, I didn't like what I've seen , I felt like they stole my friend and I was right there on the corner. It will be not a good night to me.....
i can't remember when was the last time i had a week end off, ufts.. i am so bored in here and it's friday night setting with my old lady , listening the moan that gets me irritated.. i can say oh is this life i wanted to be? for a few months, i didn't enjoy much my life here, thanks G_D i will wait for 7 weeks only so that i could go home after 7 years abroad... excited ..
thanks G-D it's Friday, hate it or love it?..
i woke up this morning as usual a constant sneezing ,grrrrrrr i hate it.. then i checked Sarah(patient) from the other room if she is alright. she has back pains for more than a week and that also bother me most..
on phone.. i pick up my phone, i wonder why my beloved boyfriend "fiancee" wasn't online in skype/yahoo messenger last night. sent him a message where he is but no reply...
having cup of coffe and a piece of bread only for breakfast... and as usual to my friday routine cleaning the silver which i hate to do it...
and what's funny i didn't do anything the whole morning, i almost forgot my patient lol... only browsing on how to make money through blogging.. i didn't know that it was lunch time.. luckily i have leftover from yesterday's soup and vegetable..GOSH, it's not like me..i'd finish my routine in the afternoon..check my plants and it is dead hehehe!!!
at the end of the day i feel like i worked too much lol...listening the moaning of my patient which is so irritating.. saw my boyfriend online and just said if i harvest his farmville and farmtown in facebook , OH what a nonsense? (seigh) i cannot make money for it.
hmmm.. i washed chicken meat this morning and i found out that the dishes of milk was there on the sink. GOSH, I told myself. I felt like yacks! I cannot understand myself why I felt it? I'm not used to separate things which I didn't work with religious people here. They said it is unhealthy , and that was I felt at that moment. So, I asked myself why do Jews separate milk from meat and I found this answer.
This is to avoid any possibility of "seething" a kid in the milk of its mother, meaning to cook the meat of one animal in the milk of that animal's own mother which the Torah tells us is an abomination to G-d. The Talmud then interprets this as a ban on cooking any meat and milk together, or eating such a mixture which is known as basar bechalav - this rules out cheeseburgers and certain candies which may contain both dairy and gelatine - as the rabbis who created the Talmud could find no reason for this rule, it is designated one of the Chukim - those of the 613 Mitzvot (commandments) for which there is no apparent reason.
Some people have argued that to do so would be inhumane in Jewish philosophy, just as taking eggs from a nest while the mother bird watches in inhumane according to a law known as shiluach haken. Either way, many Jews take great care to ensure that dairy and milk do not become mixed, keeping two separate sets of utensils and cooking pots as well as using one area of the kitchen to prepare dairy products and another to prepare meat.
There has been little agreement on how long one should wait before eating one after eating the other, though it is generally agreed that consuming meat after dairy is not as bad as the other way round since meat has been believed to leave a residue for some time after it is eaten. Different Jewish communities have adopted different guidelines - most Sephardic (Southern European) Jews will wait six hours, as will many Ashkenazi (Northern European) Jews; but those of German descent traditionally wait just three hours and those of Dutch descent merely one hour. Most rabbis in modern times - including many Orthodox rabbis - favour leniency.
Hi there , I'm back again updating my correspondence. I wasn't able to write for a few months due to some problems. hehehe!!! Actually, I became lazy to write.
I'm here again sharing those days that I wasn't here.
Three months ago, I went for a holiday together with my cousin, my aunt and her Israeli husband. I had a lovely time in the Dead Sea 3 days holiday trip. We stayed on at Golden Tulip Hotel, that caters all in one package. I cannot believe how abundant they were in food and drinks. The accommodation was really great. I attached some photo graphs here to let you show how I enjoyed so much that little holiday after working here for 7 years.
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For 31 years of existence in this crazy world, I've learned and experienced a lot of things in life.
Before I went abroad 6 years ago I thought life was like that. Pains, hard work, and happiness. Yes, it was but the more I get older, the more I understand what life is.?I meet different people, different views, different characteristics, different lives, stories etc...That's gives me an idea and aware of the things I encountered everyday in my existence. As I understood, back at my very young age, (17 years old)life was very shallow. It has a deeper meaning.
I meet a friend which is 4 years older than me, back in the Philippines she was an English/History Professor. She is smart, a good speaker, and intelligent. I adored her so much in that way. We've been living in together for about 2 years and since I left my previous job we communicated and meet once in a while. We been good friends and I knew her secret as she shared it to me. When she was teaching in the Philippines, she had a text mate which is 12 or 13 years older that her. The relationship went on so well. But she was well aware that the man is married and just filed a legal separation. Before she left to worked here in Israel, she meet the man in person and shared things which she never expected to happen. They both fall in love each other. She knew that the man couldn't bear a child because he has a sperm problem. They communicated and shared their love through the Internets and phone. As the year comes by, they still got the love they said, but she was confused of some things at the same time she was afraid to break his heart. She has a lot of friends that surrounds her. As far as I remember di kami nagkulang ng advices. It's all up to her to take it. We always reminder her that she was young and smart and she could find better than him. But she was stubborn. For 6 years working here, she decided to marry that man, and lied everything to the people that surround her especially to her family. But before that she adopted a child and that man looking after the baby. And here in Israel besides us, she meet a person (man) and treated her as a best friend. She felt in love to that man and started to confused things. But wala pa din ikalito kasi married din yong lalaki.... For her , the solution is to go home and marry that fellow in the Philippines.
She went home for a month vacation. And show to the people that she got married to the fellow she brought to her hometown. She had a small wedding celebration and the family had no idea that the man she got into was married and have no permission to get marry again. She showed some fake documents to her parents and to her brother but unfortunately when she's back here her pastoral brother was bound to know the truth through the paper that she left there. When she's here as I mention earlier she was involved with a married man whom she thought a best friend, a confidante who took advantage with her. She fell in love with that man and got her pregnant. Me and most of her friends mad at her. She didn't know what she is doing with her life. She's illegal now , pregnant but she is still continuing her romance to that married fellow and also supporting the fake husband in the Philippines with the adopted child. I have pity with her but as a friend and I think not only me are not lack giving her advices before she get into that trouble but she didn't listen. After all , what the damaged she's been done or doing now is her responsibility. She is responsible of the consequences. She is smart , intelligent woman but she didn't use her common sense.
I keep thinking where I gone wrong? All I know I tried to give the best I can but it seems it's not enough for him. Perhaps, something wrong with me or because we are miles away from each other. Sometimes he felt that I am unreachable, I am too strong which in fact I have nothing to show off. With the experiences I had I grew to handle relationship. I listen and take advices and applied it to my self.
When I was 28 years old, I had also a long distance relationship. He was working as a sailor, so we only talked once in a month or 45 days. It was hard for me but the relationship last almost 2 years then suddenly he was gone. All I've heard that he was married. I am certainly sure that we are not meant to be after all.
I left home when I was 13 years old and stand with my own and makes decision. I don't know of being so independent at a very young age is helpful? I became so though, domineering and a bossy character. I don't want to be like this but I grew up like with nobody I can count on , only myself. I don't even know who's to blame. Can I blame my parents? No idea.
Perhaps, looking for a partner it's very hard for me. Hard to adjust everything that I used to do and make. They said, in a relationship, "you have to give more , more than you receive" and it's not my cup of tea. But on the other hand I want somebody who cares, make decision, support and comfort me. I want them to pamper me because which I never get when I was a child/teenager..
Since yesterday, i got a terrible headache and I thought,lack of sleep was the main reason. But probably, the weather also one of the cause because it is very hot. Taking medicine is my worse enemy but I can't cope the pain (aching)so I decided to take paracetamol this morning. that helps me a lot. Emotional stress also the reason why people having headache I supposed. Me, I'm not overwork physically but the I am emotionally stress. Being with the elderly person for almost 16 hours a day is tiring. Well, that's the kind of job I got. I prefer to look after Alzheimer's patient rather than a mobile person, who is able to walk and talk as a normal people. It's difficult to manage. I am emotionally stress because I could feel what they felt and sometimes I am worried and the anger is there. I usually take a deep breath and get out from the room and avoid them sometimes.
I was 13 years old when I left home away from my parents because they can't be able to send me in high school. We are 6 sibling of the family and I am the 2nd to the eldest. A kind hearted family took me to the City, I worked with them as an assistant secretary of their canned/frozen business and I was studying at the same time in the afternoon. After I finished on my first year in high school , my mother asked me a favor to stop schooling because she wanted me to help my elder sister to pay for her tution fees(she was in the private school and I was a wroking student).Because I was pittied to my mother, I stop schooling and since then the family where I worked with give me a monthly salary. They didn't agree with my decesion but they had nothing to do about it. I stopped for a year and help my parents. I used to gave my money to my mother when she came to the City every end of the month. I went back school but I was working as a fish vendor in big market in Bankerohan.(my mother's nephew has a stall). I woke up 4 o'clock in the morning until 12 o'clock in the afternoon co'z I need to be in school at 1 o'clock pm. A lady in the market asked me if I could tutor his 5 yr old son, so she hired me. It was very convenient to me co'z it was very near to my school. But after a few months, a tragedy happened. Her brother got a motor accident and died. She needs to go back to her province to look after her parents business as well as the health of her parents. I had nothing to go at those times. Either to go back in my hometown or just stay their in the City. I prefer to stay in the City and finished my high school there. So, since my sister stayed in the boarding house, I asked my mother if I could stay as well. I stayed there and a few months the nephew of my father asked me so worked with their gambling business. I went out during the middle of the night just to collect the money of their agents. It was a very dangerous job. Somebody could stab or rape me if they find out I have plenty of money in my bag/pocket. Sometimes I hide it somewhere in my lingeries....Anyway, I survived and still alive now. The niece of my father, asked me to stay with themand help her with the business as well(gambling, lending). Since, I was paying the rent in my boarding house and bought my own food. I accepted the offer to save a little bit money and also I am safed. I don't need to go out for the collection. I was with them for about six years more or less... I had to do all household worked and I got only 300PHP for 2 years. But I never complain because they I had free food and a house to stay in. After I finished high school, I thought I couldn't get into collage. Another niece of my father working in an appliance center as a Sales Supervisor, she hired me as her private secretary. To assist all her agents and customer. It was a very good experience to me. So I enrolled collage. Had an afternoon class but I still worked where I stayed. I have to wake up very early in the morning cooked the breakfast and prepare eveything for the children before I went to my secretarial job at 8 0'clock in the morning. Went to school in the afternoon and went home in the evening and soak the laundry. Ang hirap nga noon, wala nman washing machine , so mag handwashed ako. :(:(... I worked hard para lbre lang ako bahay at pagkain. I didn't get any allowances from them after that 2 years. I was working for free because I ate the food, I used water and electricity and I had a bed to sleep.... I cried sometimes, at my young age I experienced such sacrificed because my parents can't afford to send me in school... I worked in a food chain after I left my secretarial job because she was vey ill and she can't reached the sales quota of the company. I enjoyed so much working at the food chain (jollibee, texas chicken, macdonald). Working, studying at the same time doing household work where I stayed was a vey diffficult for me. but still I have patience to survive. Unforunately in the middle of my college studies I had to stop again due to the health of my sister. Her medication was very expensive. I have again to sacrificed my study and after a year my mother got an operation. My father is week of problems and since my mother was ill at those time I should be strong because my sister wasn't well enough... I didn't know where to run for the money. Luckily, my co-crew lent me some money for the operation of my mother.
As my teenage life I couldn't remember that I had a lovely time like any other teenagers. I worked.worked,worked hard for myself and for my family honestly....I finished my degree and right after I found a job but because I want to help my brother and sister to go university/collages, I left my job and went abroad..The time I'm here my first priority is my family. I work here to give them a better life..it is a great happiness to me that they are happy for the money i send to them. a simple thank you that i could hear from them is very flattering...but sometimes I want to give up. How could I chase from it??? Is it really my obligation which the fact I still got a parents. Is it the sense of obligation that cannot be neglected for personal pursuits???? what is it???Do I need to considet them in every decision I make???What about me??? Until when? why me??? why they cannot ask from my other sisters, why I carry the burden all the time??? I don't have an anwer of those question. Is it a right decision to get married and left the responsibility and obligation I have now. Help me G_d...
